Jerikuto

Jerikuto described herself as an adventurous VTuber focused on gaming, art, and community interactions. Her content emphasized positivity, resilience, and building strong connections with viewers, often sharing her journey to motivate others facing challenges. On DeviantArt, her bio read: "Current Mode: 10% - 5%, Active 95% IRL. Hi there, hope you're doing well~ Enjoy your stay ^ ^ Currently pursuing my goals after recovery ヾ(・ω・ｏ) あと少し", highlighting her interests in anime, Capcom games, and various movies.

Her career involved gaming, art streams, and heartfelt chats where she shared her cancer battle. Despite her illness, she remained a beacon of positivity, collaborating with others and uplifting her audience. Her resilience made her a pillar in the community, inspiring many with her unwavering spirit. Her social media accounts, including YouTube, Facebook, Twitch, and Twitter, became inactive around her passing, with DeviantArt showing tributes in comments indicating her inactivity and impact.

Jerikuto passed away in mid-September 2022 due to an overdose on sleeping pills amid her struggle with stage 4 cancer. She was found a week later. Knowing her time was limited, she chose to pass peacefully in her sleep, as confirmed by the doctor. A friend she entrusted her accounts to posted her farewell letter and some last videos for closure. Her passing followed profound personal losses, including her father to COVID-19, her brother to suicide, beloved pets, and additional health issues like heart disease and a leg injury from an accident.

The following is the full text of Jerikuto's last notes, posted by a friend on her behalf:

"I’m not Jeri but someone she entrusted her accounts.

Jeri passed away around mid September 2022. She was found a week later and died from cancer and overdose from sleeping pills. Her cancer was stage 4 and she knew she was going to pass away so she passed away from her sleep according to the doctor.

This was her last notes she wanted to post her but did not. I’m posting here for closure and public some of her last videos.

I am sorry I never said anything.. I didn’t want to say good bye but I got worst as time goes by.. I decided to write how I felt during my last few days.. After I lost my father from Covid19 and then my brother from ending his life, I became broken.. I have the guilt of letting my brother pick the wrong choice in life as I supported him something he shouldn’t.. I love my brother and was my support to keep living and I wanted to support his life. But in the end.. he made the decision when he told me about his past relationship.. I tried to comfort him but I know he told me that he will end his life if this didn’t work out with his last relationship or his next one.. I thought he wasn’t being serious at the time until he suddenly asked me to go out and buy me gifts. And then the next thing I know he was gone.. 💔 I tried to live but life was hard.. especially when he who supported me is gone.. my mother is unsupportive and find me burden as she only thought of me as income as she only cares about me when I have money.. unlike my father who tried to support me but passed away.. and my mother thought I was making good income at work.. My older siblings who never supported or helped me also find me a burden… I didn’t matter to them when I almost died from Covid19 and had to force myself drive my car to the ER.. while coughing blood and asked for help.. At that time I realized they didn’t care about me if I was gone as they could have helped me go to the ER.. but they didn’t.. I got so depressed that I wish I disappeared.. but my close brother came home from work found me lying at the parking.. I was saved by him and that’s one reason I was able to live longer.. after I got a little better, I decided to move from home to live with my brother’s place. But unfortunately things had to go downhill after he confessed how he was also depressed and I ended up supporting him the wrong way by pursuing his love and not to give up until the end with his ex. I didn’t know.. I had no clue.. he tried to reach out to her again but the girl already had someone else.. I don’t know what happened after but he then told me his best friend who he thought would always be there for him backstabbed him.. backstabbing him with his ex that he was this kind of person to his ex that ended up breaking all his friendships.. This was when he told me he wanted to take me out later and buy me gifts and that I don’t need to worry because he’s not going to do anything to himself.. and that he loved me.. but then ended his life the next day.. I tried to come back to my channel to keep it alive and to keep me busy but I couldn’t just do it anymore.. sorry.. 💔 as I tried to live, I ended up having cancer and heart disease.. as I stressed myself out and the anxiety and lost appetite.. I tried to live normally with my situation and told my best friend in real life about my story. I know she loves me. But I felt like my life is not going anywhere where my beloved pets also passed away sooner after which also made me depressed even more.. I was so depressed that I got into accident and broke my leg.. I got hospitalized and got sent home with crutches and leg support with my friend helping me.. I was tempted to start a new life to move to a different country to get married from someone I really love I met here but the burden of taking care of me made me realized to let it go.. to let my love of life go.. to find a better happy life.. I’m not going to say who because I don’t want the person to feel guilty..

This song was so true to me that I see myself on this video.. https://youtu.be/6tJ_vEqyXTQ

I’m so sorry.. sorry.. if I made an impact to your life.. please don’t be sad for me.. I just wanted to make everyone happy (꒦ິ⌑︎꒦ີ) But I wish is everyone to be happy in their life and have a good health and be successful and.. if you can pray for me to be able to rest in peace.. 🙏

If this message goes out, this means I’m gone.. so I will say it here even though I don’t want to say it..

Good bye 🤗 Jeri

たかやん / Takayan 20M views 5 years ago 【Song Name : Just disappear】 Spotify : https://spoti.fi/2UCokLs Apple Music : https://apple.co/30z170B Other Stores : https://linkco.re/dMuuBVMZ Music/"

• "Guys shes/he's inactive" (DeviantArt comment)
• "I missed her... i finally act like gabe getting mad bc i dont like discontinued people" (DeviantArt comment)
• "where are you" (DeviantArt comment with crying cat emote)
• "Thank you for everything you have done for this community. I will forever use your llamas as my go-to expressions." (DeviantArt comment)

• Jerikuto - YouTube channel (inactive/deleted; fan re-uploads: search "Jerikuto VTuber clips")
• jerikuto - Twitch channel
• jerikuto7 - Twitter account
• jerikuto - DeviantArt account
• Jerikuto - Facebook account

• #Jerikuto - General tag